when one tries... and then fails... another.

Failing yourself is bad. but failing another is worse. i failed another. i see that now. i should have let things as they were. it's not like i'm going anywhere in this world, it's not like im destined for happiness, so why, why did i push it all away. you could be destined for it, you could be here for just a little happiness. and i walked away. i know i'm not strong, and at this moment i am at one of my weakest points, remembering a past full of love and smiles that i cannot get to. and i know that i was selfish to leave you at your worst just because i had troubles too. i can see, when i step back from myself that i am going no where and i was put here for no reason of my own. i simply am here to be there for anyone who can't find a solid help anywhere else. i'm not ment to break like i have, i'm not ment to feel like i have let myself, i am not ment to crumble and run from hardships. but i did. and i let you fall because i cracked. i didn't want to just leave you out there on your own, but you couldv'e said more to me before it all got so silly. i didn't mean to hurt you i wanna leave things alright. because i went away and now i can stand it. now i won't shatter under the weight, because i am ashamed that i ever did. i did not spend my life trying to build up a hard outer shell to fail at my first big test, i need you to lean on me again, if not for your good... for my second chance at being there like i know im ment to be.