i got chills

you'd better shape up... cause i need a man, and my heart is set on you.


soo had an epic day! i swear i woz sooo hyper. so i'll go through my classes just for you so you can be jealous of today's epicness
Period one: Media in this class we got to go watch moulin rouge... DO I NEED TO SAY MORE!?
Period Two: Maths well... as cool as our entrance was... mors coding on the door ;) this class was pretty gay... i think the relief hates us and was so sure me and vida were the dumb kids in the class till we told her we were like uber genius's in disguise.
CONTACT: Marriot no explaining needed.
RECESS: well... stefan told me he was upset that i was at school instead of spending the day getting ready for the ball... which apparently i'm going with him too. haha. and we attacked samie and made her teach us how to rave shuffle... wow she's so... not good at it.
Period three: Free period automatically awesome BUT... we tried to crash our friends classes... and failed but then after dodging Vida's guitar teacher we pulled puppy eyes at mrs marriot and she let us into her class we're we lead sing songs and quoted streetcar named desire :) she loves us... and then we ran out at the end.
Period four: Drama WELL... ran into this class yelling bang bang as i shot vida... in this class we discovered the awesomeness of *wink clik point* hai *name here* you're a superstar and we sed that to everyone... and then bell started singing "i can make you feel special" while shimmying so we were all scarred. and then we decided to dance across the hall chanting moulin rouge... and then got to watch hsm 3 :)
LUNCH: welll mate here we had some movement in the ranks! and what else oh yeah we planned our musical entrance for english... and then went to english early and vida got some letuce... (y) and then we danced into the class to watch moulin rouge yey!
Period five: English well as i stated above we watched moulin rouge while happily singing along... how much cooler can it get!
Period six: Music yeah 6 period = fail but this was a fun 6th period. we had massive jam session and vida and i were go-go dancers woowoo. and i think we all went deaf from the loudness of cameran's beat boxing..


so over all epic day oh yeah and after school i showed up at adam's house and made him keep me company till 5 :) but yeah. i'm so happy for some reason haha i bet i'm in a hell bad mood tomorrow... i'm kinda torn between actually for once fully enjoying myself and letting myself go and just do what i want... and caring about other people who aren't feeling as great as me... meaning dragging myself out of happiness to try to help them... it's a tough call... it's been a while since i been happy but i don't want to leave them behind. gah lol. well i made adam's day by telling him my "secrets" hahaha.

but i'm just an outsider i'm living in a trailer with a black and white tv set...
Wake up, when will things be good enough for you to see all that we could be. i'm sick of playing games and acting like we never care like we're never there, we pay attention for only seconds... look at you look at me there's never any us can't you see all we can become. we can shine like the sun if we believe that 2 stars are brighter then one.. cmon cmon cmon look at you cmon cmon cmon look at me. listen, the way we feel is not just about you and me it's a harmony just give in cause together we'll be brighter then just any star... a work of art. we'll make the sky bright united you and i.

is it too much to ask that you put us first... cause i feel like we're last in this universe and that's not where we orta be.


Love is a many spledid thing, love lifts us up where we belong all you need is love. oh how i adore the moulin rouge... you crazy fool... i won't give into you. love makes us act like we are fools throw our lives away for one happy day... oh the arguments on both sides.

Once upon a time a little ugly duckling travelled far across the world from her home to another place. here she found new friends of all kinds. there was a soft panda whom she was to become best friends with, there was a lion who would claw out her heart and keep it, there was a swan who would call to her forever in the romantic way only swans can. there was a little chipmunk who's high squeaky voice would grow annoying but her company would always be nice. and many more. the poor ugly duckling found this new world of different animals strange she spent four years there... and in her fifth year it was obvious she was starting to change from a little ugly duckling... not into a beautiful swan as expected... but yes there was a touch of softness to her now... so she was not so rough and coourse as she had been but no one would call it beauty as a swan should be. she hid from the lion afraid of the harm a lion could cause a small swan and took refuge under the beautiful swans wing... to notice that as she was only on her way to becoming a swan so was this swan... although he made himself appear like the full beautiful swan he too was just a child struggling with it all, her refuge place couldn't hold her she knew... although this small swan saw something in her nobody else could, nobody knows why but he saw beauty... he perception of this ugly duckling was not ugly but a beautiful swan... a broken beautiful swan, he knew her pain as she had hidden behind him for so long the lion attacked them both forever drawing her to him with his entrancing eyes... like magic a magic to catch his prey. like in vampires... the beauty and deception everything you'd want to go to... just to get you close enough to hurt you. as much as the ugly duckling could sense this she couldn't fight the power. and she drew further and further from the swan who saw a beauty in her... further and further away breaking this beautiful swan until he too appeared nothing more then a duckling to everyone. and the ugly duckling found ways to cover the ugliness... cover the ducklingness emersed in crowds of other people she could change to suit. she could blend in and be... slowly she continued to becoming the swan she was to be... but distorted so again the beauty that was hers by right surpased her and as she stretched out in her knew self... she was still rough and course but the other swan still saw beauty even when there was none to see... it softend her icey heart to know this... but forever the lion drawing her... keeping her at bay on her guard afraid to let go in case she was attacked, forever that fear and desire would keep everything in it's own little place instead of mixing in together, the two swans too different too the same... to be combined... the beauty he saw would pass this is what she told herself to allow herself to go on... the beauty he found in me will diminish and i will just be another ugly duckling in his eyes. she would wait for this day... this day was what stopped her dying inside knowing the pain she would cause this beautiful swan. forever afraid she took to the panda, who welcomed her with open arms no strings attached. she found a soft place there to rest her head without mess. to rest and recover, to laugh and play as a duckling should without the strings that the lion and swan had... the duckling was at peace now... and she didnt want to leave again. at peace with her panda.