ridiculous obsessions

we have a dance. Tells the story, a prostitute and a man, who falls in love... with her

first there is desire, then passion, then suspicsion, jealousy, anger, betrayel... without trust there can be no love. jealousy YES JEALOUSY will drive you mad.


Her eyes upon your face, her hand upon your hand, her lips caress your skin, it's more then i can stand. why does my heart cry, feelings i can't fight, you're free to leave me but just don't decieve me and please... believe me when i say i love you.


believe me when i say i love you.






attempting to kiss a ghost proves potentially problematic





once once bewitched me with words, but there was no magic and so the bewitchment failed and i was free once more. before running into a mistake.




One took me with lust, to love, to passion and light hearted but incredibly deep fun, but this wasn't to be, the gods saw to it that it ended in a way that let it never again be...




One, one i cannot pick. how he blinded me. and now it suddenly just at this second has made sense.



Once it is true there is little to be said about it. it is not rational it is all simply a feeling. i know... a friend wrote me the smallest amount, maybe because what he feels is real.
and i write the smallest amount on one for it was real... the feeling was a state of mind, a world that i entered into.





it all makes sense. i will no longer shy away from the question. because i now know the answer. finally i can understand myself. it's about bloody time.


so to anyone reading this blog is pointless to you, it's just me untwisting a certain spider web in my mind and heart... to understand for myself once and for all.



inside my heart is breaking, my makeup may be flaking, but my smile must still stay on. for the show must go on i have to find the will to carry on with the show. for the show... the show of sharade that is my life here... must go on, or i will loose everything.




Never knew i could feel like this, like i've never seen the sky before, Want to vanish inside your kiss, Everyday i am loving you more and more, listen to my heart can you hear it sing, come back to me and forgive everything, seasons may change, winter to spring, but i love you till the end of time. Come what may, Come what may... I will love you, i will love you until my dying day. come what may. until my dying day.





my gift is my song, and i keep finding that they are all for you.




The greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return