maybe get some sleep tonight

wonder what is going on, wonder what's taking you so long, and i reach out, i take a risk, now i'm full of doubt, is it worth this. smiling all the time i try to make you mine, then knowing that's not right, and thankfully giving up my fight. i fought through the fog, and got stuck in your spider web of lies, i fell over a log i didn't see in that fog, and i struggled from the web and found myself drowning in lies.

i throw my hands, searching for stability and find a hidden help. The spider has crawled from it's hiding place, as it would when it has caught it's dinner. blonde moment and i scream breathing in the lies, choking myself. but the spider puts one leg in the path of my flailing arms. i catch hold.

The help is course, and isn't nice. but then of course, no one plays nice. to get along i have to suffer, to become strong i must get tougher.

i struggle up a rock face, abseiling with a spiders leg? i crawl onto a plateu and lay, breathing, breathing air. pressure on my back. the spider looms over me, one leg pressing on my back. stopping me from getting up. it doesn't talk, of course. but i know what it wants. it saved me, now i owe it. i stop struggling to stand and collapse back on the floor giving in.

i shouldv'e seen it coming, i shouldv'e started running, but i was just too hasty, now i'm just too tastey, for it to let me alone, it wants back it's bone, that it through to me, when i was down, that it throught to me, to upside down my frown

again i hear it's thoughts, or something. it's asking too much of me, things i can't give... i remember a similar situation. when another had me like this, and i roled over and did as it asked... all i got was hurt, not this time. i stay where i am plotting, thinking, calculating... maybe if i make it jealous it'll finally start to wake up... so in my mind i think of flies, i think of how much i love flies and i feel the creature cringe as it see's my thoughts of saving flies and befriending them... it's mortal enemies!

my plan was easy, but it made me queazy, in my mind i knew what to do, in my heart i knew that i had to pull through, stronger and stronger my thoughts are, i look back and see i've come so far, in my mind i'm running, although this aint fun and, the spider says no where to run now time to surrender, but i say error in message return to sender.