...if I loved you...
...if i loved you... would you care
...if i loved you... would you be there
...if i loved you... would you smile
...if i loved you... would you stay with me a while?
...if i loved you...
you know the funny thing...
...if i loved you... it wouldn't mean a thing.
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faaarking hell
loathing, unadulterated loathing... for your face your voice your clothing... lets just say i loathe it all!
fark me how many blogs will i start with that. it seems like im just hating on everybody don't it.
well, ok no im not (y)
bah i always sound so emo in these blogs... but when im happy im out and about being happy, when im down im here blogging... and yeah i know i have shitloads of blogs so i spend quite a bit of time being down... i dont even know why im explaining this D:
maybe i am just a tad down though, maybe im allowed to be (y) my birthday book said people born on the 9th of october easily become depressed and should watch themselves because they can sink into deep depression easily. so maybe that's me.
fuck me i am in the worst mood. and for no reason. everything just sucks. he's right there and i cant have him there's like some wall there... he's so far in my past that i can never look back again. why would you make me feel this way and then bar any hope of fullfilling this feeling! why do i suddenly feel this pull to a passed so dark that i should never want to go back. why do i still feel a pull to a present that fucked me over. why can i not be happy as i am. why do i need more. when do i feel empty when i see things like i see.
i have a best friend, i have a guy that i love as a brother, i have other friends that always make me smile... so why... whyyyy do i feel empty, why do i feel like i need more... why does love still have a hold over me. why do i feel like i just want to leave... like i dont want to do this anymore, why cant i just be happy.
im so over trying to be perfect, when i know im anything but... and im so over making mistakes that people won't let go. im so over being cared for, and being ignored completely... if im over everything wots gonna please me. i need friends but i dont need some. i dont know fuking hell this sounds dum. yes that rhymed people.
i need someone by me who will just cuddle me while i cry, someone to say they love me... someone i dont need to ask why... someone who loves me for me. and who will just be there... just be there
fark me how many blogs will i start with that. it seems like im just hating on everybody don't it.
well, ok no im not (y)
bah i always sound so emo in these blogs... but when im happy im out and about being happy, when im down im here blogging... and yeah i know i have shitloads of blogs so i spend quite a bit of time being down... i dont even know why im explaining this D:
maybe i am just a tad down though, maybe im allowed to be (y) my birthday book said people born on the 9th of october easily become depressed and should watch themselves because they can sink into deep depression easily. so maybe that's me.
fuck me i am in the worst mood. and for no reason. everything just sucks. he's right there and i cant have him there's like some wall there... he's so far in my past that i can never look back again. why would you make me feel this way and then bar any hope of fullfilling this feeling! why do i suddenly feel this pull to a passed so dark that i should never want to go back. why do i still feel a pull to a present that fucked me over. why can i not be happy as i am. why do i need more. when do i feel empty when i see things like i see.
i have a best friend, i have a guy that i love as a brother, i have other friends that always make me smile... so why... whyyyy do i feel empty, why do i feel like i need more... why does love still have a hold over me. why do i feel like i just want to leave... like i dont want to do this anymore, why cant i just be happy.
im so over trying to be perfect, when i know im anything but... and im so over making mistakes that people won't let go. im so over being cared for, and being ignored completely... if im over everything wots gonna please me. i need friends but i dont need some. i dont know fuking hell this sounds dum. yes that rhymed people.
i need someone by me who will just cuddle me while i cry, someone to say they love me... someone i dont need to ask why... someone who loves me for me. and who will just be there... just be there
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