always look on the bright side of life

May 31st

Goodbye May..


It was good while it lasted but it's time for you to get out


I may be the only one counting but surviving a month as official makes me happy :)

So tomorrow is my one month success with my amazing boyfriend :) And nothing special will happen.. I will study.. go to work, be normal.. but I'll feel just a little bit warm and fuzzy inside all day :)


Juuneeeee, what's up Juuune. I have to say June, I'm a little bit disappointed in you already, bringing exams around like this, how dare you. 


Oh well, alls well that ends well.. and I have a reason to smile so life is ok :)

Oh you make me smile

You know what's awesome in life?... Delightful things. But maybe that's just me. I love the way delightful feels when you say it. I smile everytime I say it and it makes me a little bit happy inside. 


As soon as I say something is not delightful I have a little giggle and then that nondelightful thing doesn't suck so bad. So... I think that delightful is a delightful thing..


I love random little things that just make me smile. It's like brightening up your whole day, even if it wasn't a bad day those little things just make you giddy inside. 


Compliments are awesome! And not just getting them.. Complimenting someone else and watching them light up feels amazing.. it's like yeah, I just did that. And of course getting compliments yourself is never a bad thing ;) 


Getting a text that makes you smile. It's like yeah, I'm sitting here, all alone on the train not feeling too fantastic and suddenly bam! someones thinking of me and I feel all special and included again! 


Late night conversations.. are usually awesome. There are exceptions so don't judge me if your life is full of crappy late night conversations. And there's so many different types of late night conversations! There's those late nights when you're cramming in an assignment or last minute study for an exam and you're all hyped up on coffee and stressed and the conversations you have with your other hyped up stressed studying friends are purely excellent. There's deep and meaningful conversations with friends about sad stuff, serious stuff, big decisions, random stuff etc. And of course there's being cuddled up in your bed on the phone to that special someone because if they can't be with you right then.. the late night conversations work pretty hard at making up for that.


Your own imagination is a wonderful place.. or at least mine sure is, my god you should see the amazing life I'm living in there. But more importantly the delightful thing is, people in your life that make you smile just because you thought of them...


Oh you make me smile.. 

A Little Piece Of Me..

I don't know why I bother to blog.. but sometimes I just feel like I really want to write. I desperately want to write something big and moving and deep and fabulous.. but I can't. I s'pose I sort of diary out random stuff on here.. because the idea of a diary makes me feel awkward. I feel like a crazy person scribbling down my inner most thoughts and desires into a little book as if I'm talking to someone. This isn't any different and I probably still am crazy.. but it feels like it has more purpose. Another thing that's wrong with the diary is I feel like it's judging me. Do you know how crap your life feels when you think everyone, including your own diary, is judging you!? And I won't write down anything too serious or true because someone might read it or somehow something bad will happen because of it. So I gave up on the idea of serious diary writing because journaling about my day = incredibly boring crap and writing down my feelings = not gonna happen. 


I do have a memory diary though. Slowly I'm taking down the different memories that I've stuck on my wall and I'm sticking them all in this little book where I'm writing about the memory tied to the object. This one doesn't feel as silly as normal diaries because I'm writing this one for me so I won't forget these things that still seem important to me. Maybe one day I'll throw this diary away.. maybe I'll never finish it, or never look at it again.. but it makes me happy when i see it sitting there on my shelf. 


I'm weird..


Look at that.. I even avoided talking about feelings in a blog titled 'a little piece of me'. how fantastic. 

Stuck in my head

I wish I could tie you up in my shoes.. make you feel unpretty too. I was told I was beautiful, but what does that mean to you. Look into the mirror who's inside there, the one with the long hair.. Same old me again today..


My outsides are cool, my insides are blue.. everytime I think I'm through it's because of you.. I've tried different ways but it's still the same. At the end of the day I have myself to blame. I'm just trippen


You can buy your hair if it won't grow.. you can fix your nose if he says so. You can buy all the make up that mac can make. But if, you can't look inside you, find out who am I too.. be in a position to make me feel so .. damn unpretty.


I feel pretty, oh so pretty, I feel pretty and witty and bright.


and I pity.. any girl who isn't me tonight


you can buy your hair if it won't grow, you can fix your nose if he says so. You can buy all the make up that mac can make.. but if you can't llook inside you, find out who am I too. Be in a position to make me feel so damn unpretty.


I feel pretty.. but unpretty

when you mean it you should say it a lot.. people forget (L)

When someone loves you, they say your name different.. you know that your name is safe in their mouth..




Love is when someone hurts you... and you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings




Love is what makes you smile when you're tired




You really shouldn't say "I love you" unless you mean it.  But if you mean it, you should say it a lot... People forget

Don't be what I'm afraid of.. 

well

I don't want your advice, I don't want your ideas.. I just want someone to hold me till I've run out of tears






Those moments that feel like you've been stabbed in the gut and left empty..