what a day

so ow... i really shouldn't be on the computer now... but i'm bored as.
i think i could have serious brain damage... *yawn* i'm so sleepy and my head feels like a heavy cloud. That's what happens when you fall and hit your head into a concrete drain... so the nurse asked me if i remembered everything, i said yes... i think back, and i can't remember how it happend:S i mean i know what i was doing, but i don't know how the fall happend or how long i lay there for. owy

i got to stay in sickbay through media and slept until lunch (y) it was good. so i'm laying there half asleep and the year 11 boys walk in as they're being forced to sign up for P.A.R.T.Y... and i hear a voice, a voice i love to hear... dammit, and i'm laying there and my pulse picks up and i can feel my heart in my chest beating like crazy... dammit, so i roll over and curl up towards the top of the bed away from the door, in the blind spot so no one can see in. i lay and listen to the voices, the one voice in particular and smile... dammit.

So you are currently talking to maddy

Nikki :) and i'll just let you know how cool i am.... :D i like to live on the edge (y) and i adore acting, my teacher is my biggest inspiration... i have this friend and he likes me :S and i know my best friend in the world is in love with him.. and they would be so good together *sigh* i wish they would be. ok so had an alright day today, you know same old everything school and funtiddly things like that :)

Blanch Duboi :) oh myy... i am so very glad i found this blog i would hate to be saying this in person and have you see me like this... oh i am a mess i need to be bathed and rested before i talk to you. my my my what a busy day i have had and now my poor nerves are all shaken up because of it! i do not know... my my my .

Me and my two current characters. the people's lives i am stepping into and showing to the audience. i feel like i owe it to the character to do a good job you know, show their lives properly to the people watching, as it's no longer me on that stage it's them through me. :P my art is my life and it's a magical responsibility that can never be replaced ever.

just walk away and don't look back, cause if my heart breaks it's gonna hurt so bad... be honestly myself... someone told me. but, i'm never myself, i'm always playing a character, but playing myself... now there is a challenge i don't often face. it seems difficult and i'm scared to go out there, without the sharade and the cover, just playing me for the world to see... it's a different character i have not yet tackled. of course being a teenager, i am still in the process of finding myself, and so if i came out as simply me... it could be quite a mess. as i search through different ways and beliefs to find which ones are truly mine.

honestly myself, what does honestly me want to say? well... what if i don't know what i want to say? who am i kidding, i know exactly what i want to say. i want to tell you the story, the story of my life, and my relations with my friends i want to introduce you, to take you in to the deepest part of me that no one sees... because then i have tackled the hardest challenge of my acting carreer.