hai genius

no no no it's not, we are all different from you, it's everyone is different from everyone. don't you get it? it's not all about you all the time. i'm sorry. ok you're not a complete individual, you're not alone... ever. the more you make-out to be the more you feel it, it's your own fault. the world is a beautiful magical place, enjoy it... don't cry over what you can't get. no no no no no it's not that i'm cynical of you or anything, i'm cynical of the evidence you give me. it's not you as a person, it's what you do as a person. your actions and how they differ from your words... your promises and how easily they break, and you can swear they never did... but try being on the recieving end of your promises then maybe you'll see. lots of people are almost exactly like you, except one small difference somewhere... ok you're not the only one of anything, get used to it. I'm sorry. no no no no one has the right to belittle others feelings, rights, pasts and memories. just because you want someone to care about you doesn't mean you have to crush and step over everyone else and their feelings. i hear things you know... ive been called the gossip queen, i find it out. i heard you told her to "go die then" and i wanted to kill you for that. You want her to care about you, but you don't care if she lives or dies... she loves you, haven't you noticed? or are you too full of yourself that you are blind to anything but what you want to be true. I'm sorry that you hate me, i'm sorry that you think i don't care. You have characteristics that are my worst pet hates and i'm sorry for that too. i try, but i'm a broken girl, like most other teenage girls, and there's only so much i can do with the pieces i have left, and i have other things higher on my priority list, like passing school, like being happy myself... like living my life instead of missing it. i'm sorry that i'm putting myself first for once, and i'm sorry you can't understand that i need to do this.

i'm sorry i pried into buisness and heard what i did. i'm sorry i listen to the gossip, and i'm sorry you hurt another young broken girl enough for her to spill all to me. I'm sorry you can't see that everything you say i do to you, you do to another, that everything you say people to do you, you do to everyone else. You don't seem to care about anyone's problems when you talked to me, it was a false emotion shown... now i don't know if you really did feel something and you just have trouble showing it outwardly and so put on the fake version of what you were feeling so you didn't stay blank... but i can't deal with fake, no matter how real the fake is. you were always so fake around me, so awkward, i can't cope with that. i need to be the follower, i can't be in charge... i'm not the higher power. and you are lesser power in personality to me... when we're together i overpower you, i control what you'll do, i don't want that power... i will not have you do whatever i want and need. You are not a doormatt... and i will not be treated like a H.B.I.C who doesn't care for your feelings.

please, for me realise i am human too, just like you. i can be shallow, you can be shallow... i can be hypocritical, you are hypocritical. i'm sorry we clash... i didn't make it so. But you are everything that i know would make me have to take on a role i do not want. can't you understand? can't you give her a chance? at least the chance i gave you.