FUCKING YES

WOOOO i can play my song on guitar and sing it so it sounds pretty damn good bruh woowoowoo music night here i come.

people who are interested i can play you're not sorry by taylor swift and i will post a video of it when i work out either, what camera i can borrow or how to capture video on this stupid thing :D so yeah look out for that one it should be good yey. coz may i just say i'm not half bad... :D



this is the last straw, don't wanna hurt anymore... and everybody would tell me that they're sorry, but i don't believe like i did before... it's the rule, if something happens... you say you're sorry even though you didn't do it... you know like someones friend dying, you say "omg i'm so sorry" cause that's the rule... you'd look heartless if you didn't say it. but... then you realise they only say it cause it's the rule... of course they're gonna say it... but i don't want them too. i don't want people i trust to lie to my face just to be kind. they're not sorry. well they wouldn't be if they knew... i just don't believe it like i did before.


nobodies hurting just coz i am and that's the way i always wanted it to be, noones drowning in my tears too... and that's how i like it just like that. don't wanna drag anyone down with me and my complaints... like a lot of other people i know do... it's just not fair. so i'm going this one alone, he died and i cried to people... they faked it all, i took they're false sympathy as if it would help. well it didn't so this one i'm going alone. I don't care who reads this blog and if they think it's stupid that i'm writing about something that happend, without actually saying it, talking about how i'm not gonna tell anyone. well idc. I'll delete later if you get shitty. but i wanna write it out, and it makes it feel real when i post it where people can see it.


I am so hypocritical though, i just want people to understand, but i don't want anyone to know... so it doesn't work... i contradict myself, and cofuse myself as well as others.