im a tree now

ever tried to uproot a tree? removing the tree upsets the land around it.
for a very very short amount of time... leaving the tree there leaves it effected forever.

so what's worse... what's worse for the land and the tree... staying there like an infection forever poisoning where it stands... or being removed to cause strong pain for a day or so that then covers till there is no memory of the tree.

decision... what i want, is not possible at this moment in time... my option is slightly smaller version of that... to move but slightly less far away... but i'd still be here... just not there... is it worth it, would that make this place suck even more... to remove any people that i can get along with all together.

so what do i do when neither option pleases me...