whenever i try

Whenever i try the opposite happens. When i tried to get over him, i failed... it wasn't until i gave up trying that i realised i was over him. When I tried to be nice to... welll, I ended up a complete bitch. When i try for his attention i end up giving him her attention. when i try to act, i end up in hysterics...
what have i learnt?

so... i know some people are a tad angry at little old me now, for things ive done. but let me just say my latest oops... was fricken legit! it wasn't till after i'd done it that i realised how... it might, um offend... someone *tugs colar* ok accident!! i'm not really a complete bitch, i just come across as one. ok that was a completely profesional suggestion and im sorry that i made that person mad/upset ok!?

IT WAS ALL PROFESIONAL I SWEAR

but then again, if im gonna say all that's professional then i'd have to say all the good is just professional :( dam... oh well maybe i'll have to take it and say i meant it to get a little action ;)