FUCK IT ALL

i quit. i quit my job, i quit my school, i quit your friendship, i quit my dreams, i quit my life

i'm not selfish, off myself... no i wouldn't you're an idiot if you would.

but i quit trying.

i fucking hate it all!

i hate the conversation i hate the waiting i hate every little thing that twinges at me trying to make me crack well WELL FREAKIN DONE IVE CRACKED.


my best friend and person i loved most in the world is dead. my love life failed. i currently have some wierd illness that is crippling me and hurts me like hell as well as freaking period cramps. i haven't slept in 4 nights because of night mares. horrible nightmares and the internet now hates me. i come home from a horrid work shift and want to watch the bloody end of titanic and it wont fricken let me... all i wanted was to watch the damn movie *breaks down to sobs*

i used to be so well put together, so in charge. and look at me now, a pathetic remnant of my former glory. i can't even look in the mirror without turning away in disgust, i don't know how anyone else could stand to look or be with me. what went wrong. why am i falling, why can't i hold on anymore... why do i need help