what could be better then that

near.. far, where ever you are... i believe that the heart does go on.

For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby. Just because i've walked past, and I'm moving on at last doesn't mean i'm never thinking back... doesn't mean i've turned my back.

for all the joys i see ahead, and all the ways i am not dead i know that life is kind to me and there are still wonders im left to see, For all the times i fell down, and every time i wore a frown i know a joy will soon be born for there will be calm after the storm.

For all the love i let slip by, and all the times i was to cry I wondered if i'd make it through, i knew there was something i could do. For every day i live again, and every time that's not my end i thank the world that i am me and that i can settle with being me.

i know it isn't much in the way of me... so let's try a little into maddies heart and soul. once given to a boy is nothing more then just a toy, once given back in parts is never again whole... but i have worked hard to get to where i was before it all went wrong, before he took my song. I loved but two in this world... and i'm not sorry i did. for love is why i'm here, to feel and learn and tear. I know i always talk of love but that is because that is who i am. love is my life, love is my song, for me love can do no wrong. Love is all i feel as i look around the sky... love is all i need as i walk into the night. i know i can make mistakes but i know ive got what it takes, to be happy in love, sent down from above and given to me.

I know i've fallen, and i know i feel free because i've gone on from a staleness that was eating away at me for some time. I know I will always find it hard to ever fully feel again since Ash, because he took my heart with him to the grave. And since him... most of my emotion is simple numbness. i tried to love again... and just failed and hurt him. I can't feel any strength of the emotion as it has all gone to the numbness. when i smile i feel truly happy... but it's only one shard of the shattered soul i once had. When i laugh and cry it's honest emotion... but if you felt it the way i felt it you would feel a muted, muffled, fuzzy emotion trying to break through. I am scared to lead them on. anyone who would ever care, because i know i do not feel... i know i was shocked through when he died...

for all the times i held him close, and all the times i see his ghost... I will remember every time, i ever joined his soul with mine. Too bad the last and final time, i joined his empty soul with mine, was when he left this world of ours, and now he's taken me out of bounds. My soul and heart has gone, joined with him they too now have gone. but i can feel them renew their energy as i start to love again. As more and more i see, how much of him is in me... i know he never took my soul with him, but i kept his with me.