i hope you see

For reaching too far infront, and talking about things that you have no idea about... i hope you now see. for every word you spoke outa line, and everytime you pretended i was yours... for every dream you let swing loose and every time you wouldn't listen i hope you now see. For every stupid word you said... and every hope that isn't yet dead, for every smile you did for me and every time you failed to see... i hope now you see.

does it hurt just a little bit now? can you feel it clearer now!? do you understand anything now... i hope you see now. From every smile i shot your way, and every time that i would say i hope you realise the truth i hope you see now. I'm an actor at her best... i hate to tell you the rest... of how i know who wins I do... oh yes i know who comes out on top. I'm an actor at her best, i think you can figure out the rest... It's not a lie I say to you, but a character i try on for you. I'm not that girl you've come to know... i'm not the girl you thought i was... i'm not the girl you did once love... i'm not that girl at all nu uh.

I have told you once before, how i can smile and seem to ignore. any pain that comes my way, well i can smile to make your day. i know just the things to say, to get you to do it my way, i know all the things to do, to make it seem like im smiling for you. When i'm mad i just don't care, and i know it's slightly unfair... that i have this over you when there's nothing you can do. I wish i wasn't so angry, and then i might just be, a little more compasionate, and who could tell what would come from that.

i think back over what you've done, and all the times it's you who made me won... i know i'd be so much less, if you hadn't tried your best. i don't kid and simply say, that i'm a heartless bitch today... i feel, i love and cry... and if i didn't care i wouldn't try... but you pulled my final straw, i was blessed because i was lead by you... but you held on too long and now i know your welcome has worn and it's time for this to end. i'm sick of lying to you, i'm sick of playing your friend. I know you see and that's why you shell up... i know deep down you know this time it's up. I'm sorry if it hurts to walk awayy, i'm sorry but there's nothing i can say... i wish you could know it now, i wish you'd feel it right some how, but no i have to lie, and now i watch you cry... because of my doing... but if you hated me then that would be ok... at least the decision would be made.

i'm sorry it happend like that no truly i really am. i'm sorry you saw that underneath all of my smiles and polite chit chat i was nothing more then that. i'm sorry i lied to you and pulled the carpet from beneath your flying feet. but a slap to the face was the only way, you wouldn't wake up any other day. let this signal the end... let this pave the way for you to walk into the light, into the future without fright. let this pave your way away from these saddening days.