When all is said and done

I really don't know what I want to say, or to whom I wish to say it. But I feel like I have to say something, though I know some people wish I wouldn't.




I s'pose learning more about what love is and how it can be can do these things to a person.




And this isn't romantic, someone else has already captured that side of my love. This isn't brotherly, I'm not comfortable with you like that. This isn't a love you'd have for a cute cuddly little animal... I don't see you as cute and cuddly sorry.




nevertheless... it's something.




I don't love you, but you hold some string that's attached to me somewhere very central. And every now and then, a little tug from you sends me flailing... and I don't know why I let you?


I'd like to see you be like everyone else. Commit me to your memory... and leave me as only that. I'd like to see you go off, be happy... forget about me. But I wish you wouldn't each time I see you go to do so. And I don't know why I care.




I'm not being proud I promise. I have admirers and mostly they tire me or upset me. I don't really care for compliments or anything unless they come from certain people. So please don't think for one second I miss the attentions only.




Once upon a time it upset me because I thought you were bullshit like every other guy. But after this time I s'pose I was wrong. You do flit though... which is normal and I'm happy about that :P






This had to be said. Not that I said or clarified much... pay no attention. Just go out and find that looker you've been needing for awhile now. I hope for your sake she's pretty so you can describe her as so :P I hope she loves you and doesn't play you or leave you or bullshit you.




I hope she's nothing like me, I imagine I'd destroy you