Sentimental moments #7

Dear Ex-boyfriend,

I could yell at you here, I probably should yell at you here... you deserve a lot worse but I don't see the point. The only reason I'd yell at you is to make you realise what you did, to make you hurt like I did, not because that's what I want to say to you, or because that's how I'm feeling now. I look back over the time we spent together and I think wtf was I thinking, but I also smile because I had a good time. I don't know why I did but I did. I have to say I'm glad my heart has moved on and I can look at you and not pine over you... that was pretty pathetic. Liking someone else was so refreshing for me... you were like a bad mood I just couldn't shake, perhaps I could point out here how sick you made me, physically. I would spend nights at home sleeping outside the bathroom spending more time in there being sick then outside sleeping during the days while you were being a complete asshole. When you made me do things to please you that I didn't want to do I felt cheap and sick and horrible but I so desperately didn't want you to dump me, even then I knew you were a perverted prick and somehow I still wanted you around. I'm glad to say I'm over that stage... that was pretty pathetic..

But this wasn't meant to be a hate letter, I don't want to reminisce over old times either though. I really don't know what I want to say to you. I want you to get out of my life. As much as I want to remember this someoneI want to make sure I forget you. I want someone to have to remind me what you were like, I don't want to know you and I don't want to be around the hurt that you cause. Your friends put up with so much and I used to hear most of it but in the end I gave up. You are like an endless source of pain and you inflict it on anyone that tries to get close to you... and I still can't work out exactly why. You come across as so happy and carefree always jumping around and smiling... anyone who only knew that side of you would bash me for this letter and that was a nice side of you. I felt like a little kid finding out there is no santa clause the day I realised that side of you barely even belonged to you.

Have a nice life.