Sentimental Moments #12

Dear Person who's hurt me most.

I've been very lucky in my life, no ones really struck out at me incredibly badly. So I'm not sure who to write to here...

I'll send a line to that driver... I don't know if he's alive or not, I don't know if it was even a he... but he took someone from me because he couldn't use a car properly. He created an accident that didn't need to happen, killing someone who didn't need to die.

I'll send a line to that doctor... that doctor that couldn't save his life... I have to hope that he tried, I have to believe that he did everything he could... but even so losing him was the greatest pain I've felt and I still don't know who to blame.

I could send a line to my ex. he was a right prick who went out of his way to hurt people... but the pain he caused me was nothing compared to actually hurting so I don't know if it would be worth it.

I could send a line to that violent person I know... Who likes to hit me to make himself feel better... To make himself feel bigger... He's probably hurt me the most physically... mentally I just don't care, so I could have been a lot worse off if it upset me more.

I could write a letter to Cupid. And say come down from your fucking fluffy cloud and see that I can love and I really would likeeeeee someone to love me. Maybe he should just take some aiming lessons to shoot the right person for me, or maybe he should just stop shooting me so I don't fall anymore.

After all of this I should probably just write to myself because I've been my worst critic, my worst enemy etc always... I didn't know how to love myself and so I was ruining myself... I probably made a lot of things worse then they had to be. I'm glad I'm learning how to change. and I'm glad this letter has no destination.