ash <3

once we didnt know each other... it seems like so long ago now, although it woznt much more then a year... well a year 2 weeks ago wasnt it. donnelly river... a place i fell in love with immediately, sheltered a boi i would come to love. we met... we laughed... we hung out... it woz fun. i woz sorry to leave, there woz potential there, of a good friend... maybe more. what news :D what smiles he was moving. his parents sold donelly river :( but he's moving closer. i can see him again. we grew closer. he bought me gifts he made me laugh we hada ball. he sat with me in the park when i woz hurting, when people werent nice and it woz cold. he listened to my dad yell at him and slam the door in his face... oh y he bothered i will never no. slowly i found myself beginning to love him and before i new it i woz completely in love. but what would he say i didnt no. i was scared of rejection and loosing him... we could have been lovers... it woz there for awhile but it seems the great one that controls all that had other plans... we were more then that. my love for him grew beyond romance to form a bond stronger. he too felt this way. he became a brother to me... it would kill me to see him in pain. and i would give anything to help him. he told people i woz his little sister, he knew everything about me. and i knew eeverything about him. his mother died. he moved away, far away over seas. it tore me apart to be seperated from him. he woz as close as ffamily... it wos almost to say i needed him. then the terrible news.... he fell ill too. now... now he's not here anymore, now he's not here to listen to me and laugh at me and be my big brother. now he's not here for me to make fun of, for me to know the weaknesses of. now he's not here, but his memory is. from strangers, to aquaintances, to friends, to lovers, to as close as family we have grown together, changed together and now we die apart. him far too young and me still waiting for my end. Ash Butler may you rest in peace my dear dear ash and may u watch over me and know that i will never forget u. i miss you <3>