what did I miss?

was there a meeting that told us everything we knew was to be reversed? Everything we believed true, to be wrong. That said what's good is bad, and what's bad is good. That said rewards are for evil and pain is for good?


was there a law passed of "No Good Deed Goes Unpunished"? That no act of charity goes unresented? Did I miss the announcement that said treat others how you wish they would never treat you and you will be gifted.


Positive attitudes are good, and you sit there depressed and pathetic. People in worse situations then you fight for everything they have, which is often nothing. They stand and fight for nothing. And you sit there and cry as if your world had ended. And then everything you want is just handed to you, just like that.


love and sex... do you know what they mean? Friendship and loyalty... do these words make sense to you? Don't worry I didn't expect them to. Don't worry I don't expect anything great from you.


I thought I was doing pretty well. I thought I was being patient, waiting for my turn. I thought I was smiling and feeling good, and doing good. But apparently not. If I don't yet deserve these small trifles like a lover, then I haven't done well at all. I feel humbled to know now that what I thought was worthy of this, wasn't. And I feel angry that what isn't worthy of anything, is comforted with things that I work for.


People fight, people fall... and some of these people can still smile. Can still care.

When is it their turn to deserve anything?