200th post

and there you have it folks another hundred posts. i need a life. they're not even interesting posts *sigh* lol.


To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.

shakespear destroys fairy tale endings and therefore isn't my favourite person in the world atm... but that statement is true and beautiful. people should learn to live by that... So many people lie to themselves about how their lives are and what they are etc... and therefore can't be true about themselves to other people.


i had a thought the other day, during a fight and i thought it was a good thought and that i'd write it down :)

i have been said to be crass and blunt... to care of only myself and not others in that i don't change myself to a situation at hand... well first of all i do thankyou all the same but anyway.

so i thought to myself, the person who said these things, walks through life with the soul aim of getting people to like them. and i thought, what a terrible way to be. I mean i live to please, parents, friends, teachers etc ofcourse but i don't live and change myself specifically to get someone to like me. and that's when i had my thought, and that thought was; i am like a magnet, and no... not in the 'everyone is drawn to me' way, but in the, 'I am me and i have a magnetic force, this can draw or repel people. as i walk through life it's like dragging a magnet across a desk top. some are plastic or paper or the wrong end of the magnet and either simply don't cling to the magnet as it passes or are repelled away. but the others, like paper clips etc which are magnetic are drawn to this magnet and stick to it. i see people should be like this magnet. walk through your life, and the right people WILL be drawn to you and will stick by you always, and the wrong people will not. instead of changing yourself when you're with different people so everyone starts off liking you and then later finding out who your true friends are by watching those plastics fall away.


it's hard to let it make sense on paper... but it sounded good in my head. anyway my point was, to be yourself... and that just came out as a good explanation. :)


Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second-guessing. Too late to go back to sleep! It's time to trust my instincts. Close my eyes, and leap!It's time to try defying gravity. I think I'll try defying gravity, and you can't pull me down. Words that people should understand. But without turning wicked :P

I'm through accepting limits, 'Cuz someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change, but 'till I try, I'll never know. This, this two sentences are what i feel now, in a nutshell this is where im at. Too long I've been afraid of losing love, I guess I've lost. Well, if that's love, it comes at much to high a cost. Again this is how i feel, i lived to love and to be loved and that proved not to be what it was and now I'll try defying gravity, kiss me goodbye i'm defying gravity. to all the people that i hurt and all the choices they made i didn't like, i've had a change of heart and... I hope you're happy I really hope you get it, And you don't live to regret it.