A note about myself

Well.. this is the first post from my 30 day challenge so that's something about me, I enjoy doing these random challenges :)

My full name is Madeleine although for the most part I rather being called Maddy.. when I started university I considered introducing myself as Madeleine so that no one knew me as Maddy but I found that letting go of the nickname felt a lot like letting go of high school me and I wasn't quite ready to move on that quickly.


I love university and find the lifestyle of it a lot nicer than high school, but I do definitely miss aspects of high school. I don't have a great number of friends but for now that suits me just fine. I have a few really close ones and then a whole number that I will see at parties and in classes etc that I don't feel the need to know on a highly personal level. 


I have trouble getting to know people on a personal level because I want to know all about them and learn everything I can but I never want to open up myself and this obviously puts a strain on any friendships. I think this is one of the reasons I decided to study Psychology because as the Psychologist you are there for the client and to hear them talk and to work out what is wrong and what you can do to help, never does it directly involve you releasing your inner most thoughts and feelings in return. 


If I fall for someone and they like me back this is probably the time when I'm happiest in life because no matter what else is going on, once I've donned those rose tinted specks everything is delightful.. unfortunately I'm not good at navigating my way through this world and so this is a rarity for me. 


I get easily nervous and shy and often feel out of my comfort zone and this isn't something I enjoy but it's something I've learnt to accept and if i expect it I find it easier to work around it and break out of my shell sooner. I'm not an alcoholic but I do enjoy a good time and the only time I drink is when I'm binge drinking at a party. I enjoy this feeling because it takes away those inhibitions and fears that hold me back so often and I feel like I can finally connect with people in a different way and just enjoy myself without worrying about what's going on.


One of my favourite past times is to laugh.. I will laugh at just about everything. Laughing is my defense so if I'm nervous or unsure about how to respond to something I will probably laugh, If I'm laying on my back and you touch me, I will laugh hysterically and I'm still not sure why. I'm incredibly ticklish and so as much as I hate being tickled the best laughs I get are whilst being tickled. Funny people really check my box because I enjoy being around them because of the joy they create in the world by making people laugh. I'm one of those people that really does believe in the power of the smile, and that it is highly contagious. 


there's probably a lot more stuff I could, or should, have told you, possibly instead of half the stuff I did say, but that's about it from me today and I shall report back tomorrow